Carry Me

The last few weeks have been tough. 
Work has been hard and cross-cultural living has been frustrating. 
I realized this week that I've been unhappy for weeks...

I can't exactly pinpoint when it started or what the trigger was, 
but looking back, I realize that I've allowed discontentment to take over. 

"I wish my job didn't suck so much." 
"I wish I had more free time." 
"I wish that I was skinnier, healthier." 
"Wow. Her life is amazing, why can't I have that?" 
"I need a vacation." 

I've been complaining SO MUCH. 
About everything. 
Little things. 

My life is far from perfect, but I am so blessed
And had I forgotten that. 
It's so easy to forget, isn't it? 
So easy to buy into the lies, to focus on the negatives, to wallow in the depression. 

A couple of weeks ago I discovered Audrey Assad
Her album, The House You're Building is incredible
So full of truth, so beautifully written, so worshipful. 
As I was listening through it, I came upon the song Carry Me.
The lyrics pierced my discouraged heart. 

"You say I am blessed because of this
So, I choose to believe
As I carry this cross
You'll carry me
Help me believe it." 

Oh Jesus, carry me. 


Teacher John and the Sparklers Incident.

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